i'm not different... just weird... # 27

new year is coming... this year is leaving... and i'm still waiting...

i'm not different... just weird... # 26

Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan

Kesetiaan kepada Raja dan Negara

Keluhuran Perlembagaan

Kedaulatan Undang-undang

Kesopanan dan Kesusilaan

i'm not different... just weird... # 25

harini aku malas-malas lagi nak buat kerja...sebagaimana hari2 yg telah berlalu dalam hidup aku. kekurangan vitamin b6 menyebabkan aku kurang motivasi utk memulakan kerja pada awal pagi. nnt dah nk siang2 sikit baru nak terhegeh2 buat. biaselah tu. klu wat kerja cepat2 ni bukan hadi la namanya. hahaha. dah dah dah. aku nak buat kerja. kerja apa ntah aku nk buat ni. ISO? L1? L2? E-learning? Essay? buku convo? ish3.......

eh... tapi... emmm... xpelah...

i'm not different... just weird... # 24

THIS SHOULD NOT HAPPEN

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/26nga/Article/index_html

this is another sexual abuse case which i think really-really stupid and should never-ever happen anymore today. there were thousands of cases like this one but still, people don't want to learn and from others mistakes. it is true that we learn from our mistakes. but sometimes, some mistakes are just too painful.

we actually don't have to make mistakes to learn. we can also learn from others mistakes. it sad to see such beauty being abused. beauties out there, please, try to have brain.

boyot

walaupun kdg2 aku maen tenis dengan kawan2, tapi perut aku tetap makin boyot. nak kena try strategi baru la mcmni.

all in a day's work...

man... i really can't believe that i am now a working man. i'm now a totally a different person that i once was. but there are still things that i cant get rid of from me.

life as a student is much more easier and fun. considering the stress and workload i am now carrying, i now realised that being a student is way way better than working with students. one major challenge that i have to face every single day is, going into class which have lots of beautiful young girls. OMG... man that is really tough... hehehehe... But i take that challenge, and make it a motivation to go to work... hahahaha... now i do like this job... (is it just a job... or should i consider it as career... man... hate to think...)

but still, there are a few new things that need to be learnt. critics, politics, ass kissers... my god this new environment is full of bull shit... and bulls... and shit...

but its kind of funny to me seeing how people trying to survive out here in the wild. some being sympathetically pathetic, telling fucking stories that so called sad and hoping other to respond, "aww... so sad... kesiannye... let me give u a hug... do u want my virginity as well... don't worry... i'm not that smart after all and i couldn't see beyond those sad stories of yours..." 

and i say, fuck you. go and rott in hell.

i'm not different... just weird #23

yearghhh...

it's monday again... am i going to like it or not, i still cant decide. i really do not know whether i really want this or not. pressure is one thing i hate right now. it gives me headache. feels like dropping everything i carry. seems too heavy for me.

but hell... but i am already here. and im trying my best to adapt with everything. yeaahhhhhhhhh... lets do this!!!!

kenapa dengan aku...

pagi tadi, lebih kurang jam 8.00 pagi, sedang aku dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja, di suatu simpang, motor aku bergoyang-goyang...

cis, perkara yang paling aku tak suka kini berlaku... tayar pancit... cis cis cis...

dengan mengangkut juju yang kini semakin terasa agak berat juga kadang-kadang, ku tempuhi jua perjalanan yang berbaki lebih kurang 2 minit itu. aku tempatkan kuda berantai di hadapan kedai motor yang belum bukak lagi. dengan harapan kedai itu akan bukak sebentar lagi. aku ternampak seorang abang yang sedang memarut kelapa di sebuah kedai runcit yang agak berhampiran. setelah bertanya aku dapati kedai itu akan dibuka hanya selepas solat jumaat.

aku berfikir, oklah tu kot... dari die tak bukak langsung...

kemudian aku berfikir... maknanya aku akan harus berjalan kaki lah ke masjid hari ini... fuh, jauh jugak tu... naseb aku gagah lagi...

dan, aku betul2 berjalan kaki... ya, aku kagum kerana aku tak penat sangat pun... yeah!!!

aku masih ade stamina!!!

jauh weh masjid dgn tempat kerja. seekor semut terpaksa mengambil masa beberapa hari kalau nak sampai. walaupun kaki dia lagi banyak dari aku.

kini saya sudah mula bekerja...

kini saya sudah mula bekerja...

tapi saya macam takut2 lagi... setakat ni ok lg la sebab x start mengajar lg...

saye it kan uitm sec 17 tu dah cukup teruk... rupenye ade lg yg leih teruk...

huhuhu... baeklah...

like it or not, i better not complaining...

go go go

when it comes to the end... #2

friday, may 29, 2o09... I'm about to leave this place. I feel it's kinda sucks to leave the greatthings behind. I wish i can carry them all with me, but i'm just an ordinary guy. sometimes weak and helpless. sometimes can't even think for myself. sometimes can't even carry my own shit. and that is where friends came along. cleaning up some mess i did. carrying things i made. it is always hard for me to say goodbye. that is 1 thing i always hate to do. demm. and im not gonna say that now either. no, no i'm not. just wanna say... till we meet again... soon... lets make it very soon...  

i really hate to end things...

but i'm not good to start...

i don't want to go...

but i can't stay either...

i don't want to leave you...

but i need to meet someone new...

i don't want to stop...

but i can't keep going on...

i don't want to change...

but i can't stay the same...

i don't want to forget you...

and i really don't want to forget all of you...

wah. shit. i miss you guy already. izzat, edd, juju (jap lg jd rider ngan aku), mie, ben, bobo, aje... epi, laney, hiezel, maldot, saldot, elee, dibah, adeb... eh... semua orang lah... huu... arbok juga (blk roger aku haa)... korang semua jgn lupa aku ye... budak gemuk ini sayang korang weyh. series. nak nanges ni tp tahan sebab ade juju kat sebelah ni. ahahaha.

semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua...

when it comes to the end...

yesterday... my mom said to me... 

be good there... don't just fooling around... 

remember where you came from... 

remember your purpose... 

remember us... 

and... always remember who you are...

but did not listen to her...

i forgot where i was from...

i forgot why i am here...

i forgot my family...

and i always forgot who i really am...

and now i regret...

dear God... 

lead me to Your path... 

bright my path with Your light...

dear mom... dear dad...

i am sorry for who i have been...

i am sorry for what i have done...

i am sorry for everything that i said... 

for the pain that i made...

for the shame that you take...

for the things that you hate...

i am sorry...

i am sorry... 

i am sorry...

huu...

i'm not different... just weird... #23

seriesly... aku lupa yg ade blog... ahahaha

shit does happen... will it happens to us too...

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Tuesday/National/2513147/Article/index_html

my friends... be very careful... everyday... everytime... with everyone... please...

wahaha... i'm surprised...are we malaysian...or martian...

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Monday/National/2512057/Article/index_html

gila babi la weh...

i'm not different... just weird... #22

never been to place like here...

never seen it anyway...

very eager...i wonder...

but anyway...

i guess i wasn't needed here...

since its new it has no tangles...

isolation has no flower...

very sincere...i scour...

why should i care...

today, it adds up a number in my years...
the numbers grew... but the years getting smaller...
if i have 63 years to live my life, now only 40 years left... shit...
i have nothing so far that makes me proud...shit...
but does that really matters...
i have my family and friends...
they put me to a place where i belong...
why must i whine...
my life is fine...
but will it shine...

haha...

i'm not different... just weird... #21

aaaaaaaaa..............

bosan...
bosan...
bosan...
kan bagus kalau buat assignment tu sesuatu yg seronok...
mesti aku tak bosan sebab sentiasa ade je assignment melambak2...
ah...
dunia...

i'm not different... just weird... #20

LITTLE THINGS I CAN DO BEST

I may not be a great warrior to help them win the war...

I may not have great power to keep them safe...

But these are some tiny little things that me and my friends did...

to give a hand...

or at least...

makes us realize...

that we should be stronger...

to protect... and to help... ourselves... and the others...

i'm not different... just weird... #19

sehari selembar benang...

dua hari dua lembar benang...

tiga hari tiga lembar benang...

empat hari empat lembar benang...

lima hari lima lembar benang...

enam hari enam lembar benang...

tujuh hari tujuh lembar benang...

lapan hari lapan lembar benang...

sembilan hari sembilan lembar benang...

sepuluh hari sepuluh lembar benang...

sebelas hari sebelas lembar benang...

dua belas hari dua belas lembar benang...

tiga belas hari tiga belas lembar benang...

kalau aku buat a.e aku dah siap kot rasanye...

haih...

i'm not different... just weird... #18

i've got a question...

do u prefer to kiss others ass or get your ass fucked...

i mean...

to stand alone by yourself... or... stand behind others' ass... to save your ass, and get more asses to kiss...

ahaha...
its kinda funny tho...and annoying too...

does these kind of people even have any guts to stand alone...

losing a battle defending what you stand for is way much better than sticking behind others, just to be on the winning side...

owh God...

i just hate to see another ass-kisser...
i'd rather be all alone, anywhere on my own rather kissing peoples' asses...

come on dude... get a life!!!!

i'm not different... just weird... #17

aku kena tag

adeb tag aku. da lama dah. aku tak reti sgt sebenanye. ntah. ni la aku try.

* Get the book that is closest to you. Now.

* Go to page 56.

* Find the 5th sentence.

* Write this sentence as your entry.

* Don't look for your favorite book or the coolest one, just the closest one.

don't forget to quote from which book and who's the author!

ni la dia the sentence...

"we were best friends and bitter rivals."

taken from 'procession of the dead' by D.B. Shan

mcm ade pape je ayat ni... cis...

malas la aku nak tag sape2

i'm not different... just weird... #16

there is a reason for me to be proud of myself...

lokasi : terminal bas segamat
waktu : 3.30 p.m.

kat tiket tulis 3.30 p.m.
3.45 p.m. : bas x sampai lg la dik...
4.00 p.m. : bas lmbt lg la dik...
4.15 p.m. :bas xde lg la dik...
4.30 p.m. : la dik la dik la dik la dik la dik...

4.40 p.m. baru bas sampai...

4.45 p.m. : tangkak KL 3.30... tangkak KL 3.30... tangkak Kl 3.30...
4.50 p.m. : tangkak Kl 3.30... tangkak KL 3.30... TANGKAK KL 3.30!!!
5.05 p.m. : tangkak KL 3.30!!!!!!!!!!!!

3.30 nenek kau dah pukul 5.00 dah!!!!!!!!!! bilenye aku nak sampai KL??

i'm not different... just weird... #15

what in the world...the world is waiting for... The time is now... How could we let the Israels blow these childrens' brains out of their heads... LETS ACT NOW!!!!!!! We can donate, we can boycott, protest...pray... Help them... Do what ever we can to help them...

i'm not different... just weird... #14

semalam maen futsal kul 1230 sampai 130. lepak2 sikit. pg td tido kul 5. ingat aku bakal bangun pukul 9 atau 10. rupanya pukul 7 mata aku dah terkebil2. yaa... itu dia... aku ada masalah... iaitu xleh tdo lame2... cis... (padahal semalamnye dah bantai tido dari ptg sampai malam...sebab tu xleh tdo...) dan yg celakanya... tiba2 lutut aku jd mcm sakit2... susah nak berlari (mase maen futsal semalam)... owh... x beznye...

bangun pagi2, masuk kain baju dlm mesen basuh. isik air, letak sabun. amek sehelai kemeja, lalu aku iron. lepas tu... aku dah tak tau nak buat ape... kaki aku dah ok rasenye...

kejap lg la mandi... awal lagi...

sambil dengar lagu2 butterfingers yang aku harap bakal di pertontonkan pada aku secara live hari ini.

yaa... aku bakal lihat band pujaan aku selepas nirvana beraksi, pada show mereka sendiri. mereka, dan hanya mereka.

harapan aku lagi satu... ade la harapnya diorg wat lucky winner ke ape ke, dan si lucky itu dapat naek ke pentas nyanyi ngan diorang... dan ianya ialah aku...owh... dah beberapa malam aku terfikir sebegitu... uhuuhhuu... dan dah beberapa hari aku prektis lagu2 mereka... sambil jerit2 sorang2 dlm bilik, lompat2 membelasah gitar... manelah tau impian jadi kenyataan... huhuhu... (terima kaseh kepada housemates aku sebab memahami dan menyokong aku a.k.a. tak terajang aku sebab memekak hari2...)

sekarang tengah dengar lagu E...
'cause i will never lie!!!!!!!!!!

after midnight

i'm not different... just weird... #13

i'm not different... just weird... #12

what else?

don't look too far away...

i believe that we are all concern about the killings going on now at palestine. no need for me to tell all that anymore. rite? but i think we might be looking too far away. what i mean is, it is ok to help others who are in need. but before we are able to do all that, we need to help ourselves first.

tp ntah la...

because at the same time, we cannot be selfish. rite?

rapes, murders, robbery, all that happen here in our country. only not as cruel, and brutal as the zionis. but hell, it happens, every single day;and the number increases.

what is happening to the world?
are humans evolving?
becoming more and more like beasts?

i once saw a cat, crimpled and old, trying to mate with its own daughter...(??????...daughter kucing...hehehehe...incest la senang cite....)... and that makes me wonder... manusia yang ikut binatang... ataupun binatang yang dah mula tiru manusia....ataupun manusia tu memang binatang...

ntahlah...
sama2 la kita muhasabah...

i'm not different... just weird... #11

correlation between hadi and kurt

1) kedua2nya x pernah beli kapal terbang seumur hidup mereka

2) kedua2nya xnaik kereta kebal israel untuk ke kelas

3) ibu mereka berdua adalah wanita

4) mereka berdua x pernah pergi ke bulan untuk merakamkan album

5) kedua2nya ade kat myspace walaupun kurt dah mati dan hadi tak mati2 lagi

6) pernah tgk boobs courtney love...(err...hadi...explain this one)

7) mereka berdua juga tak pernah berjumpa dgn penyanyi yuna secara peribabi...eh...peribadi

8) nenek mereka berdua juga adalah wanita

9) nenek kepada nenek mereka juga adalah wanita

10) mereka berdua pernah nyanyi lagu smells like teen spirit

11) kedua2nya tak pernah saling jumpa menjumpai

tahi tahi tahi tahi, bukan taik taik taik

the right spelling of the word "shit" in malay is T-A-H-I... and we should pronounce it as TAHI, not TAIK. so after this please use the correct pronunciation. for example, we are not suppose to say TAIK HIDUNG anymore. but in stead, we must say TAHI HIDUNG. other examples are such as TAHI LALAT, TAHI MINYAK, TAHI TELINGA. so please, jangan merosakkan bahasa kita yang indah ini. bahasa jiwa bangsa

i'm not different... just weird... #10

i was thinking one day... to let others know what i am capable of... to let others see what i am made of... to let others make me feel that i am part of...

and so i tried so hard to put myself on the top... being someone that i am not... doing something that i thought would make me look hot... and being someone that i am not... making things that i thought would leave me a spot... and again, being someone that i am not...

does it feels really good up there...

will it took me to the place up there...

what i have is what i am...

what i did is what i need...

what i gave is what i get...