Thursday, July 23, 2009

all in a day's work...

man... i really can't believe that i am now a working man. i'm now a totally a different person that i once was. but there are still things that i cant get rid of from me.

life as a student is much more easier and fun. considering the stress and workload i am now carrying, i now realised that being a student is way way better than working with students. one major challenge that i have to face every single day is, going into class which have lots of beautiful young girls. OMG... man that is really tough... hehehehe... But i take that challenge, and make it a motivation to go to work... hahahaha... now i do like this job... (is it just a job... or should i consider it as career... man... hate to think...)

but still, there are a few new things that need to be learnt. critics, politics, ass kissers... my god this new environment is full of bull shit... and bulls... and shit...

but its kind of funny to me seeing how people trying to survive out here in the wild. some being sympathetically pathetic, telling fucking stories that so called sad and hoping other to respond, "aww... so sad... kesiannye... let me give u a hug... do u want my virginity as well... don't worry... i'm not that smart after all and i couldn't see beyond those sad stories of yours..." 

and i say, fuck you. go and rott in hell.

Monday, July 13, 2009

i'm not different... just weird #23

yearghhh...

it's monday again... am i going to like it or not, i still cant decide. i really do not know whether i really want this or not. pressure is one thing i hate right now. it gives me headache. feels like dropping everything i carry. seems too heavy for me.

but hell... but i am already here. and im trying my best to adapt with everything. yeaahhhhhhhhh... lets do this!!!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

kenapa dengan aku...

pagi tadi, lebih kurang jam 8.00 pagi, sedang aku dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja, di suatu simpang, motor aku bergoyang-goyang...

cis, perkara yang paling aku tak suka kini berlaku... tayar pancit... cis cis cis...

dengan mengangkut juju yang kini semakin terasa agak berat juga kadang-kadang, ku tempuhi jua perjalanan yang berbaki lebih kurang 2 minit itu. aku tempatkan kuda berantai di hadapan kedai motor yang belum bukak lagi. dengan harapan kedai itu akan bukak sebentar lagi. aku ternampak seorang abang yang sedang memarut kelapa di sebuah kedai runcit yang agak berhampiran. setelah bertanya aku dapati kedai itu akan dibuka hanya selepas solat jumaat.

aku berfikir, oklah tu kot... dari die tak bukak langsung...

kemudian aku berfikir... maknanya aku akan harus berjalan kaki lah ke masjid hari ini... fuh, jauh jugak tu... naseb aku gagah lagi...

dan, aku betul2 berjalan kaki... ya, aku kagum kerana aku tak penat sangat pun... yeah!!!
aku masih ade stamina!!!

jauh weh masjid dgn tempat kerja. seekor semut terpaksa mengambil masa beberapa hari kalau nak sampai. walaupun kaki dia lagi banyak dari aku.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

kini saya sudah mula bekerja...

kini saya sudah mula bekerja...
tapi saya macam takut2 lagi... setakat ni ok lg la sebab x start mengajar lg...

saye it kan uitm sec 17 tu dah cukup teruk... rupenye ade lg yg leih teruk...

huhuhu... baeklah...

like it or not, i better not complaining...

go go go

Friday, May 29, 2009

when it comes to the end... #2

friday, may 29, 2o09... I'm about to leave this place. I feel it's kinda sucks to leave the greatthings behind. I wish i can carry them all with me, but i'm just an ordinary guy. sometimes weak and helpless. sometimes can't even think for myself. sometimes can't even carry my own shit. and that is where friends came along. cleaning up some mess i did. carrying things i made. it is always hard for me to say goodbye. that is 1 thing i always hate to do. demm. and im not gonna say that now either. no, no i'm not. just wanna say... till we meet again... soon... lets make it very soon...  

i really hate to end things...
but i'm not good to start...
i don't want to go...
but i can't stay either...
i don't want to leave you...
but i need to meet someone new...
i don't want to stop...
but i can't keep going on...
i don't want to change...
but i can't stay the same...
i don't want to forget you...
and i really don't want to forget all of you...

wah. shit. i miss you guy already. izzat, edd, juju (jap lg jd rider ngan aku), mie, ben, bobo, aje... epi, laney, hiezel, maldot, saldot, elee, dibah, adeb... eh... semua orang lah... huu... arbok juga (blk roger aku haa)... korang semua jgn lupa aku ye... budak gemuk ini sayang korang weyh. series. nak nanges ni tp tahan sebab ade juju kat sebelah ni. ahahaha.
semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua...


when it comes to the end...

yesterday... my mom said to me... 

be good there... don't just fooling around... 
remember where you came from... 
remember your purpose... 
remember us... 
and... always remember who you are...

but did not listen to her...

i forgot where i was from...
i forgot why i am here...
i forgot my family...
and i always forgot who i really am...

and now i regret...

dear God... 
lead me to Your path... 
bright my path with Your light...

dear mom... dear dad...

i am sorry for who i have been...
i am sorry for what i have done...
i am sorry for everything that i said... 
for the pain that i made...
for the shame that you take...
for the things that you hate...

i am sorry...
i am sorry... 
i am sorry...

huu...

Thursday, May 28, 2009

i'm not different... just weird... #23

seriesly... aku lupa yg ade blog... ahahaha