when it comes to the end... #2

friday, may 29, 2o09... I'm about to leave this place. I feel it's kinda sucks to leave the greatthings behind. I wish i can carry them all with me, but i'm just an ordinary guy. sometimes weak and helpless. sometimes can't even think for myself. sometimes can't even carry my own shit. and that is where friends came along. cleaning up some mess i did. carrying things i made. it is always hard for me to say goodbye. that is 1 thing i always hate to do. demm. and im not gonna say that now either. no, no i'm not. just wanna say... till we meet again... soon... lets make it very soon...  

i really hate to end things...

but i'm not good to start...

i don't want to go...

but i can't stay either...

i don't want to leave you...

but i need to meet someone new...

i don't want to stop...

but i can't keep going on...

i don't want to change...

but i can't stay the same...

i don't want to forget you...

and i really don't want to forget all of you...

wah. shit. i miss you guy already. izzat, edd, juju (jap lg jd rider ngan aku), mie, ben, bobo, aje... epi, laney, hiezel, maldot, saldot, elee, dibah, adeb... eh... semua orang lah... huu... arbok juga (blk roger aku haa)... korang semua jgn lupa aku ye... budak gemuk ini sayang korang weyh. series. nak nanges ni tp tahan sebab ade juju kat sebelah ni. ahahaha.

semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua semua...

when it comes to the end...

yesterday... my mom said to me... 

be good there... don't just fooling around... 

remember where you came from... 

remember your purpose... 

remember us... 

and... always remember who you are...

but did not listen to her...

i forgot where i was from...

i forgot why i am here...

i forgot my family...

and i always forgot who i really am...

and now i regret...

dear God... 

lead me to Your path... 

bright my path with Your light...

dear mom... dear dad...

i am sorry for who i have been...

i am sorry for what i have done...

i am sorry for everything that i said... 

for the pain that i made...

for the shame that you take...

for the things that you hate...

i am sorry...

i am sorry... 

i am sorry...

huu...

i'm not different... just weird... #23

seriesly... aku lupa yg ade blog... ahahaha